Of course, here, today, in the beginning of it, I feel like I'm not big enough for this story, for the vastness of it, that I'll inevitably fuck up how beautiful it is in my head right now. I got so used to the idea that no one would ever publish this book, and now it's suddenly a real live creature. And I have no justbeast to brainstorm with. So I'm fairly miserable and feeling small and overwhelmed. But I'll get through it. It'll somehow happen. I have to have faith that it will--and that faith lasts only so long, which is why I do these marathons. Because I can only believe in myself for so long, like the King of All Cosmos.
Way back when I took 50 pages of this beast to Rio Hondo, Maureen McHugh, one of my personal heroes, said in her critique, discussing how to proceed with the rest of the book: use every trick. Meaning, every clever literary trick, anything, to get this story out, to make it understood to an audience who has never heard of Prester John. That idea was tremendously exciting to me. So now I'm thinking...what are my favorite tricks?
What are yours? What in the postmodern toolbox thrills and tweaks you? What are your least favorite?