September 18th, 2009

Green Wind

Thoughts on the Life Cycle of Novels

I'm so deep in the writing of Deathless, or whatever it will end up being called, I can hardly think of anything else.

Remember what I said about Marids?

Our lives are deep, like the sea. We flow in all directions. Everything happens at once, all on top of each other, from the seafloor to the surface. My mother knew it was time to marry because her children had begun to appear, wandering about, grinning at the moon. It’s complicated. A Marid might meet her son when she is only twelve and he is twenty-four, and spend years searching the deeps for the mate who looks like him, the right mate, the one who was always already her mate.

I feel like this is true of writing novels that one has already sold--I am writin ghtis now and it is new and it shines and I feel like it's the best thing I've done and I love it, every word, and I want to share it. But somehow, somewhere, I am also already done with it, being awed by the cover art and afraid and excited by the release, and copyediting it until I can't bear the sight of it. I am making a trailer, planning parties, answering interview questions. I am already touring, I am listening to s00j 's songs for the first time, I am hurt by bad reviews and cheered by good ones, I am already defending the choices I haven't made yet, I am already finished touring, I have already read from it so often I only see its flaws, I have already become frustrated with how much better I feel I can do. It is already years past this book, and I cannot even remember all the characters' names. It's all happening at once, with every stroke a key, all at the same time. It's not unpleasant.

It's not unlike time travel.

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  • 14:22 Damn. 2/4 siblings not coming to the wedding. Like half the point of a wedding is having all of your family in one place. #
  • 14:30 @rosefox Unfortunately when you add Cleveland + World Fantasy there are a really heartbreaking number of people who can't now. #
  • 14:31 @konanut I will. But I see my siblings once every several years at best. #
  • 15:33 @justbeast's wedding ring: bit.ly/4r31Dd #
  • 20:45 Serious drop in quality for S5 LOST, even on DVD. #
  • 20:46 Also apparently that whole "there's a Real World Scientific Explanation (tm) for everything" crap the writers used to spout is right out. #
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